I Care About You

Sorry, I don’t mean to hurt you. I do want to save myself.

I have to choose myself. I was crying and shaking when I wrote this.

If you want me, show it. Not only for playing with feelings, but for real. I am so sorry. I can’t stand anymore with your pattern of “just enjoy life.” It hurts, and it really hurts me.

I wrote this because I have been holding so much inside for a long time. I tried to understand, to be patient, to follow your rhythm, to not force anything. But in the quiet moments, the distance, the uncertainty, and the waiting slowly became heavier in my heart.

This is not anger.
This is not blame.
This is just me being honest about what I feel and how it has been affecting me.

I care about you. That’s why this hurts. And that’s why I need to protect myself too.